Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I Realize I'm in Ohio ~

I realize I'm in Ohio . . . but . . . just how much gloom and doom can one really take? I know that there’s sun above those clouds . . . I’ve seen it! I've seen it mostly flying in from somewhere else. Apparently, this phenomenon (sun) isn’t an uncommon site in other states. The last time I flew, I noticed something just before we made our final decent into Cleveland. I’m sure if you live in this area you know what I’m talking about. There we were, above these beautiful clouds and in the bluest of skies; bright sunlight shinning all around. Then it happened . . . our descent into the darkness of Northeast Ohio. I thought to myself, it’s as if we just descended into the ocean. Into the depths! I wanted to ascend back up into the sky, up above all the dark clouds. Leaving all darkness behind – now that would’ve been awesome! At least it was a nice dream. Sometimes reality can seem more like a nightmare.

Now I’ve been told, at least by one individual, that I have sun deprivation. I disagree. Though I’ve been known to turn on every light in the kitchen and lay on top of my kitchen island, okay, I did that once and to be funny. But you have to realize it was days and days not just a few without sun. Believe you me, I wasn’t the only one that thought she’d loose what mind she had left!
I’ve felt like that again over the past few gloomy days. It always appears to be worse for a person when they’re going through hard times.  Trials. That rough patch, even that bump in the road can seem much bigger. When keeping busy (and there’s always a lot of busy) doesn’t seem to work. This type of day really wears on a person and that certainly has been true for me. It’s especially true, when I know spending more time in God’s Word redirects my focus off the gloom and doom, “problems,” towards Him.

But, what if you don’t even feel like doing that?

~ It can then make it a sad state of affairs. ~

Sometimes trying to remain hopeful while trusting the Lord and in His perfect timing is hard. It’s especially hard when the answers don’t seem to be there, or even like they’re coming at all. Remaining thankful and not losing heart when all doors seem to close. It really becomes the ultimate test of ones faith.

~ Look up beyond the gloomy clouds. The sun is there. And, the Son is everywhere. ~VB

One morning last week I was spending time with the Lord, in His Word. I believe He lead me to read Psalms 42.  David asked why are you in despair, downcast), and then tells himself to hope in the Lord. (No matter what and continue to praise Him). He said this twice. Sometimes we have to tell ourselves more than once. David's soul was thirsting for the living God. He said his tears have been his food.

Why are you in despair, O my soul? And why have you become disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God. Psalm 42:5,11


Reading in verse 4 He said this after others asked "Where is your God?" David responses; These things I remember, as I pour out my soul: how I would go with the throng (a multitude those assembled) and lead them in procession to the house of God with shouts and songs, of praise, a multitude keeping festival.  ESV

We need to remember in trials to do what David did.  Yes, he battled the same thoughts and went through struggles.  He saw bright beautiful skies with big clouds of white and the sun shining bright and yet descended into deep with feeling waves that had gone over him. I have felt this but .  .  .

~ He's where our help comes from. ~


I will lift up my eyes to the mountains;
From where shall my help come?
My help comes from the LORD,
Who made heaven and earth. 
Psalm 121:1-2

I'm hoping this post has helped someone out there going through that rough patch with some inspiration and encouragement.  Sometimes it's just helpful to know you're not the only one. I still know laughter to be some of the best medicine.  In fact my sister and I would call each other up and she'd say it is a nice shade of battleship gray and you'd have to laugh!  And, if I've caused you smile even just a little, maybe this gloomy day wasn't so bad. .

I would have to think on that some. . . :) V

3 comments:

Becky said...

Trust me, you are not the only one going through what you are going through. My problems feel like those clouds, but then something small but wonderful will happen and it's like that sunshine breaking through, even if it's only temporarily to let me know that God is still at hand. Sometimes it's all I can do to keep going but with God's help I do.

I love "hearing" from you each day, and I thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. It helps a lot. I read the Psalms daily and the ones you quoted from I have read often.

A passage that I have memorized from reading it so often is a favorite - Phillipians 4:4-9 4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Take care.

Becky

Refracted Lite said...

There's so many scriptures I love, both in the New and Old Testaments.
Though, the scripture you quoted has been going through my head recently. I appreciate all you comments. Thank you, Vik

D said...

Yikes V.!!!! Why didn't you call and yell at me and tell me to read this post beforetoday, when, thankyouverymuch, things 'seem' a little better...ah, an illusion, maybe, but I'll take it!
Your's right-on about the sun thing...once in a while my head really aches, and about the time I realize that the barimetric pressure is WAY low, and that's what has brought it on, the low pressure front moves on out...anyway, something to consider..
Holding on, to her... and Him.
'therefore, encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing' 1Thess.5:11 thanks for doing that for me...D